Dear Galaxy:
I woke up today and thought what am I waiting for? For life to start? For life to begin? Or for a new chapter in my life to be written? ... It then occured to me that I was only thinking this because I was unhappy where I was at the very moment. No job, broke, and in a low valley. I didn't really have a reason to get out of bed, except for that I might have to go to the bathroom and I would eventually get hungry. So how does one find the will to get up and go, when there is nothing to get up for? ... Most would think, well you just need something to get up for, but that it isn't the answer. We must get up every morning and rise from bed as if it were on purpose. Many of us get out of bed because we must fulfill obligations we have and can't lay in bed all day. Well guess what? I can, I can literally lay in bed all day, but then I would be miserable and nothing would get accomplished, or well really something would, I would start to rot and smell funny and my roommates would probably kick me out. No...what I realized I needed this morning to get out of bed was good ol' fashioned patience. Patience to let God lead and guide my life. Patience to wait for the good things in life that are right around that corner, that I have coming to me. I know right now it feels like I have been granted another persons' wish or prayer. I have been given so much time, to do something, just haven't figured out what. And so far I have just been acting selfish. I am sure that there are many people who envy the time I have now, funny how I can't seem to see it as a blessing.
So I just decided that, here I am in a valley, been granted someone elses wish and what am I going to do with it? Lay in bed all day or use it in the best way I know how? Well the scared part of me wants to do number one, but here I go striving to be the second!! And patience shall be my best friend.
I signed up online to volunteer at a hospital helping there and I plan on consecutively making good meals to help my roommates and I live a little bit healthier lifestyle than, fast food and restaurants. And I sewed myself a few skirts and sewed someone else a baby onesie. It is very cute. My room is fairly organized and most of my clothes are clean, I haven't done any laundry yet today or read my bible. That is next on my list. I have however, set a goal, made a plan and hope to stick to it. So just a little of what I have accomplished and just a little to keep me going. When the time is right I will find the right job and I can move forward from that, but right now I am going to try to relax and enjoy the time I have been given, regardless if I wanted it or not! Oh and I made my bed, big accomplishment there, seriously, did you make your bed this morning?
To being thankful for a blessing I just can't see at the moment!
Pa-tient–noun | 1. | a person who is under medical care or treatment. |
| 2. | a person or thing that undergoes some action. |
| 3. | Archaic. a sufferer or victim. |
–adjective | 4. | bearing provocation, annoyance, misfortune, delay, hardship, pain, etc., with fortitude and calm and without complaint, anger, or the like. |
| 5. | characterized by or expressing such a quality: a patient smile. |
| 6. | quietly and steadily persevering or diligent, esp. in detail or exactness: a patient worker. |
| 7. | undergoing the action of another (opposed to agent ). |
—Idiom | 8. | patient of, | a. | having or showing the capacity for endurance: a man patient of distractions. | | b. | susceptible of: This statement is patient of criticism. | |
Oh and I did happen to look up the definition (obviously) of the word patient. I thought maybe if I knew what it meant, then maybe I could understand how to do it better. My favorite is " undergoing the action of another" but I am going to try to focus on number 4 and number 6 :-D Guess we shall see!! :-D
So I ask this, why do you get up in the morning? And what do you do when you feel like you have nothing to get up for? ....Wait until you do, because saying you don't is more ignorant than stupid, there is a good reason your still alive, God's work in your life is not finished and until it is, you will wake up every morning so you can crawl out of bed to eventually finish what he has set before you.
I leave with this quote:
"The purpose to life, is a life with purpose."
Couldn't have said it better myself!
~Marie
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