Well what to say here. It looks like I will always be behind one day in my blogging here. I am in my third day of school and I am only writing about yesterday when I should be writing about today. I guess its better that I am behind on here instead of behind on my schoolwork. Which to think of it I bet I am pretty behind. I have anatomy to do, which will be do next time we meet for class on the 14th of January and even though I have a time to do it now, I know that I will procrastinate doing it till the last minute, exactly the kind of bad habit I am wanting to break. Hopefully, I will. We shall see.
Besides having homework already, I have already had my first experience in the classroom with the massage tables. Yesterday we learned to drape supine and prone. Prone meaning face down on your stomach. And supine meaning on the spine or laying on your back, looking up at the ceiling. Well so we were a little behind schedule in our class and as was I. I hadn't found a partner yet.
Now I think I should say that my class is not like most, according to faculty. My class is 37 compared to the 50 students it usually is, so first off it is smaller. Second of all, there is a fairly even number of guys and girls, yes I repeat girls and GUYS (Sure it is nice that guys want to learn this sort of trade, it works well, they have more strength especially in like deep tissue massages).
So, I didn't have a partner yet and so when the time came to practice draping( draping- the covering that goes over a client when in a massage session) I was out a partner. Thankfully, there was another person in the class who didn't have a partner, but it was a guy. So you know I am already nervous about undressing completely in class with other people around, but then let us just add to that uncomfortable feeling and just make it completely awkward. No amount of anything, could have made me comfortable in that moment.
So I am like OK!! Whatever I guess, got to get this over at some point, I would prefer now rather than later, It really has a lot to do with your mindset. At this point, I was trying to think positive, like ok it will be fine, as long as it is kept professional. And you know as soon as I changed my mindset it wasn't so nerve racking anymore. I was able to get into what they say is called "beingness" yes, a term that is used in school, but I am not quite sure if it is in the dictionary.
"Beingness"- described many different ways, but any UCMT student would recognize it as having oneness with self or like "being in the zone" you are completely focused and able to block out anything. So your surroundings basically. I was able to find this easy and I didn't even realize what it was till later.
So there it was "BEINGNESS", a funny term I know, but I found it without even trying. And it was great. After that the undressing while a guy was holding the sheet and being a little bit nervous himself, it was easy to block out and not think about it.
So after a way exciting class, where everyone was nervous and each had levels of uncomfortableness, I think we will all learn really fast, we are all just as nervous as the other and that our confidence will begin to build the more routine it becomes.
For the second day of class though, I was still screaming inside, I feel like for once I have accomplished so much, I can already see the finish line and it is the greatest feeling in the world. That of course is not looking at the my financials, now if I can just make sure I don't go bankrupt going to school and don't have to withdraw because of financial status, that would be great, but because life is not that nice all the time, Wish me Good Luck!!
And with that I go, class starts in like 30 minutes and I want some time to just veg on the internet and chill. Check out my email, skype, facebook, stuff I like never do anymore. But sweet yeah for once !!!
Well Peace Out- Third day blog tomorrow :-)
Love, Eve
